Darn it!

I really feel like flinging my head on the wall...

it gets harder and harder each day...arrrghhhh!

who invented IT????

:-)

Can't wait to go home.

Cheap, cheaper, cheapest

Overheard:

If I’m given RM200,000, I would sleep with anyone.

Eeewww…How cheap can you get?

Told by someone:

Woman meets foreigner in a bar. Took him back. Woman gave her all, almost everyday for two weeks. Even agreed for threesomes. Man was having fun. Woman wanted his money. After two weeks, she wanted marriage. He wanted bail. Chat messenger was blocked. Man left to his country. Woman left in search of a new victim.

Eewww…How cheap can you get?

Read in newspaper today:

Prices of cars, both fully imported and locally assembled, are expected to be lowered soon, after the Government slashed taxes under the National Automotive Policy (NAP) announced yesterday. The new tax structure took effect yesterday but car prices may not fall immediately as car companies may need to clear existing stocks.
Hmmm….How cheap can you get?

Sleepy lar....=O

After work, headed off to Hartamas yesterday. That being the first time I stepped into the much-hyped-about place. Before that, managed to get a slight glimpse of Tropicana…sigh, the houses were like palace, with underground parking and all…

The rich becomes richer,
The poor becomes poorer.

Anyway, I went to Hartamas to check out a friend’s newly opened mobile booth. Unfortunately it was raining and business was not so good. Hopefully things are better from today onwards.

Ate in a nearby shop. The food sucked but the price was a bomb. Spotted a Hummer parked in a nearby parking lot. That was actually the first time I saw one in real life.

Too many first times, eh? I know I know…I’m such a ‘jakun’. =D

It rained cats and dogs. Was shivering with cold, but I was dying for an ice cream so bf was sweet enough to head towards the nearest Mc D drive-thru and got myself a Choc Top Sundae and the bf, French fries. Stopped at a nearby parking lot, since he was scared I might dirty his car (Guys!), and got out to eat. It was great. Like a picnic, though we were only standing. The air was cool and the fries were yummy. We used the sundae as a dip for our fries, brilliant idea from my bf..:-)…New innovation… The combination tasted good anyway.

There’s nothing like a simple moment,
That makes my heart flutter,
And brings a smile to my lips.

Nothing beats Mc D’s sundae. Not even baskin robbins. And I’m pretty sure not many would agree with me on that.

Woke up at 7am to do some exercise today but it was cold, so I pulled the blanket over my head and slept till 7.25. So much about shedding that extra pound.

Good day folks!

Monster...

We sometimes live in a make believe world, imagining things that could not be reality, fueled by what we see and what is being offered for us to grasp.

Phew…long sentence huh…Honestly, I don’t understand the sentence either although I was the one who wrote it…he he

Anyway, the point is, sometimes we are fed with all these ideal things by everything that surrounds us that we begin to think that it is indeed the reality…But the truth is, it’s not.

And when things don’t seem to be ‘ideal’, we begin to fret, get tensed, think negative things and so on…

The same goes for relationships. In books and movies I watched, the guy seems to be ideal, so I start picturing my man to be the same. I created this make believe ideal boyfriend and imagined how he would take care of me. When I got my boyfriend, I began to expect all those ‘ideal’ things. I start relying on him to make my world perfect. At least, that’s what the movies told me. When the world seems to be pressing you down, just rest your head on the shoulders of your man and the world will fade away.

Duh!

Sure, the first one year, everything was fine. That’s when things were new and you can’t seem to breathe when you are away from each other even for a split of a second. Eventually like all things do, the hype fades and everything turns to be normal. Then, when things didn’t seem to go the way I pictured it to be, I fretted. I began to get annoyed, irritated, disappointed. I thought he doesn’t love me anymore. More fights. More shouting. More tears.

I thought he was changing. The truth is, he is still the same. Maybe a little changes but he too is human. Just didn’t fit the picture I had in my mind. With that picture clouding my eyes, I didn’t see the sacrifices he was doing for me. I demanded more and was disappointed when I couldn’t get what I wanted.

The thing is, I never realized I was wrong until recently. Just when I thought all was lost, I looked at his face again and realized how much I love him. That’s when I saw the light shining on my errors.

I just saw him as my boyfriend but never realized my role as a girlfriend. I never compromised on even small matters. I guess I sort of ‘latched’ myself on him like a blood sucker and asked for more favours…Soon the favours turned into demands and when he said he can’t make it, I became angry. I sound like a monster, don’t I? he he!

Well, I can see my mistakes now. Funny he actually put up with me so far. It’s hard to change that ideal image in my mind but at least I will try. It’s a start…and I’m sorry…

:-((

From initial nervousness which was over just now...i'm feeling a pang of sadness...

The presentation is over and my vendors just left for their respective countries and i know it's a little weird, but i'm seriously missing them, actually missing the guy whom i was working with closely.

No la, not i-am-falling-for-him kind of miss, but just a normal humanly kind of miss, if there is such a word. It was seriously great working with him, it being the first time i actually worked with someone outside Malaysia. He was very nice, answered even my dumbest questions although he was actually a senior project manager from another company. Coming to think of it, when i actually knew earlier that he's a senior manager, i thought i'm screwed, i have to act or at least try to be intelligent but he was downright to earth, i didn't feel any differences in our positions,he never acted high and mighty, never treated me as a junior idiot, he he...

The two weeks were great, i learnt a lot, both about the project and also about his country, culture etc. We even whacked 'banana leaf' together with my boss at a local Indian shop. The other guy, he came in for two or three days, and he is actually the vice president of the company and he too never treated me like junior blur one, my views were given due respect, no matter how insignificant it may be...

All good things come to an end and i guess it ended today and now i'm on my own until the next person comes in to assist me with some deeper understanding on the technical part and then, i'm on my own, battling the evil world of computers...

I guess i have to tell myself that i'm a big girl now and it's time to act like one too...

sigh...!

Damn sad...:-(

I miss you J and D!

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I'm so nervous, i can't even breathe properly...

sometimes i wish i'm working as the security guard instead of being in the computer industry. everytime i walk past the company's security checkpoint and i see the guard just sitting there, playing game or doing nothing, i wish i could do the same too, and get paid of course...but with higher salary la...

but then again, he might be wishing that he is working in the office, instead of in the guard post...

ah dang...i'm nervous...

i can't breathe!

Ahhhh....

Another beautiful high-performance sports car from the home of the Prancing Horse.

Weekend salsa

The weekend was great. Friday evening was company’s happy hour. 6 F1 tickets were given away during lucky draw but I wasn’t lucky. Sigh! Had to intro myself in front of the staff. Made them laugh out loud once during my speech which is good, knowing for a fact that I’m no stand up comedian. The people are good so far; touch wood, except for Sore Arse anyway. Went off to the hairdresser and cropped my hair short.

The rest of the evening was spent channel surfing at home. Yeah, from not having astro at home to gaining absolute control over the remote is a bliss. But I’m bored of it now. Only some shows interest me and most of the time, I just flip through the channel until bedtime.

Saturday…oh yes, Saturday was really cool. Got squashed in the commuter. Irritated Kameeni by asking repeatedly, 'Are we there yet’ like the donkey in Shrek, he he! And she was actually gasping for breath in the real overcrowded commuter…

The whole gang, well not whole, about 13 of us met up at Chilli’s in Midvalley and yakked away, while wolfing down the awesome food. That was my first time in Chilli’s by the way and I loved the food. I wonder why it’s called Chilli’s. The food wasn’t very spicy.

Felt a pang when we left though. We used to go together from campus to Midvalley together. Now, we come from all directions, meet and head different directions after that. Life seems to have it’s own way of spinning.

After the meet up, I followed my boyfriend to Shah Alam stadium to watch the D1 Drift competition on the racing track. Some of the guys were pretty awesome. A Nissan Cefiro won the race. I had a great time feasting my eyes on some real cool cars, Toyota Celica, Nissan Skyline, RX7, …Yum!

Best of all, there were guest appearance by MTV’s ( I think it’s MTV’s) ‘Pimp my ride’ dudes, Alex and Big Dane. They are here to find local cars in Malaysia to be modified. So those of you with junks stored in the garage, better take it out for a drive, just in case you get spotted for a free car make-over. I only watched the show once and it rocks!

Competition ended at around 8.30pm. Legs sore from all the standing I had to do, heading home, took a hot bath and slept like a baby.

Sunday was spent shopping for some essentials and cleaning up the room.

Monday, well, Monday hmmmm…reached home after work only at 9pm. Dead tired. Slept like a baby. Today is another day!

Have a good week folks!

(P/s1: In the D1 Drift race, there was not even one single Indian guy in the competition. We Indians seem to be lacking backward in most things. It’s time for leadership change and to come out from our shell to start exploring different lifestyle and technology. We have to get involved in sports, race, competitions etc etc…but then, who am I kidding? Indians shun those who even study for IT, let alone start tinkering with cars…duh!)

(P/s2: I know I said I will elaborate on Sore Arse but I think that guy got my hint and left me alone. He doesn’t even lift his head to look at me when we cross paths. He just hangs his head down which is good. Since he left me alone, I shall do the same.)

Good evening

8.30 am: I just discovered something. If you keep looking at the yawning smiley icon in Yahoo! Messenger, you feel sleepy yourself.

Big discovery huh?

I’m damn sleepy now.

Seriously.

Well, weekend was great. I went home. Had a wonderful time with my family. Took them to Pizza. I know what you are saying, ‘What? Just pizza?’…Well, with my meager ½ month paycheck, I could only afford that for now…=)
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6.30 pm: Oh yeah, the new vendor guys arrived and the work is so far fun albeit complicating. And yes, the coffee in the new office is so thick and yummy…

I guess for two weeks I would be fully occupied but I ain’t complaining. No idea why. It’s fun.

But let’s not gush too much…who knows what tomorrow might hold.

The first Monday I’m actually having fun at work…

Wohoo!

Of faith and miracles

I came to office and logged in to my Yahoo! Mail and saw an email from my ex-school friend with the following title: Miracle at Ramar Temple, Lumut with the following message:-

Dear All,

Miracle in Sri Ramar Temple Lumut Naval Base Lumut. Sri Ramar Deity
Turned 45 Degrees To Left.

Please Spread The Good News To All Your Family Members and Friends.

(It had 2 pictures as an attachment but I don’t wish to display it here for some reasons)

I have no objections towards religion. In fact, I’m a practicing Hindu myself, I’ll be excited to go see the ‘miracle’ but seriously, how does the fact that the deity turned 45 degrees to the left supposed to be good news to me and my family? To renew my faith? I need God to turn 45 degrees to start believing in him?

Sometimes we Hindus follow things blindly. We look for miracles from God without appreciating the best miracle of all times, our life, our every single breath.

Because of this blindness, we sometimes do very stupid things. Have you ever watched the VCD of Ayah Pin and Sky Kingdom? Well, I did and here are some of the stupid things I saw.

• He was dressed like a deity in the temple and was worshipped, complete with the fire and bell (exactly like how priest does pooja when we normally go to any temple).
  
  
• He was seated in an abode-like seat, normally can be seen in Hindu God pictures (golden altar).
  
  
• The priest kneeled and touched his feet for blessings.
  
  
• Other temple goers shower him with flowers.
  
  
• He was taken into the main section of the temple (the place where the main deity is placed and usually only the priest is allowed to enter and curtains were drawn, no idea what happened there)
  
  
• His feet were washed and some stupid ladies took the water and rubbed it on their head.
  
  
• Feet wash water was drunk by one lady as a ‘tirtham’. (Holy water, holy crap!)
  

Hinduism is a very beautiful religion. Take time to understand it. Not follow things blindly and tarnish our image. If we ourselves don’t respect our own religion, why expect others to respect it?

It feels like as if we worship almost everything nowadays. Dog, snake, Malay man… I seriously wonder what’s next.