Green S is a pig!

Aha..

One more important point..

I asked this wonderful friend of mine to invite me to join gmail and she happily invited me.

I didnt realise that i had to change my profile to overwrite the name written in the invitation email and sent an email to my boyfriend 'dengan penuh semangatnya'. I only discovered the blunder when i got the email from my boyfriend with the previous email attached at the bottom which said,

********* Monkey has sent you an email.

I'm gonna kill that pig!

Week 2: Friday!!!

i stayed back in campus again last night but didnt get much work done. Was in the tutorial room around 7.30pm, dreaming away and occasionally scolding myself silently for not giving my fullest concentration in whatever that i was reading.

Then a bunch of kiddos came over, begging me to change rooms coz they needed the room for their dance practice and being such a good girl (ahem!), i let them have it and dragged myself to another smaller room.

30 minutes later,around 10.30, the guard came.

"Adik,keluar ye..nak tutup bilik".

"Aik, bukan tutup pukul 12 ah?".

"Tak la dik, sekarang kena buat booking dulu. Pegawai suruh tutup. Student sendiri cari pasal. Dia orang tengok laman lucah atau buat benda benda tak baik dalam bilik."

Sigh, drove back to the apartments. Was busy chatting away until 12.30 midnight with my housemates. 12.30, with all the guilt my mind could muster, i forced myself to study until 2 am , gulping down a full flask of hot coffee with 2 'red' nescafe sachets. Right before that, i gulped another full flask in the tutorial room. i hate coffee, i have never drunk so much of coffee in one day and i have never ever sipped one at my work place either. It almost feels like im drunk or getting high on beverages..what a sad life.. At 2, i sat crossed leg on the wooden chair, and rested my head on the table, wanting to take a short nap only to wake up at 3am, not being able to feel my legs. Whatever that happened after that, feels like a daze. i remember walking with 'pins and needles' in my leg to the room and falling asleep. Woke up at 8, unable to lift myself from bed, with bad gastic pain courtesy of the coffee, cursing myself silly. Managed to get ready somehow and slept/daydreamt for the first half of the class.

Then gulped some milo and managed to temporarily defrost myself after being turned into a walking ice cube in the training lab. It's like a mini Antartic here. It's a miracle that it never snowed.

Milo somehow managed to perk me up and i spent my time singing "im so lonely" by Acon, loudly in a damn cute high pitched chipmunk voice. Unfortunately my both coursemates sitting on my left and right didn't think so and i kept getting killer stares from them. What to do, it's hard for people to appreciate another person's talent. I understand their pain.(I bet one of them would be reading this soon, he he)

Lunch was spent insulting K-Lo.

Yahoo...esok cuti!!!

Oh yeah, called my small bro last night and he said he missed meeeee...

P/S: She's so sweet. Hope she knows how much i appreciate it.

Week 2

Erghhh...week 2 and im spending time from 9 am to 12 midnight in the campus and totally be unable to lift my index finger by the end of the day or perhaps the beginning of the next day.

The course is really really really really taxing. The more i read, the more i dont understand it and the more i don't understand it, the more confused i get and the more confused i get, the nearer i am to the road to failure and the more i think about it, the more freaked out i get and the more freaked out i get, the more depressed im becoming.

Thinking of subcribing to some kind of drugs that can keep me awake at all times. i need to be alert, active and require less sleep until the end of the course..seriously, if anyone out there know abt any safe drugs, drugs in this sense is something that is subtle, recommended and not illegal la..ok and works to ward off sleep at all times for the next remaining 3 weeks with NO SIDE EFFECTS.

Blunders

The following conversation ensued in the training lab with me and N.

N : Im getting married tomorrow.(joking)
Me: Huh?
N : Im getting married tomorrow.
Me: To morrow? Who?
N : Im getting married tomorrow.
Me: Who's morrow?
N : Im getting married tomorrow.
Me: Oh..tomorrow..i thought u said u r getting married to Morrow. Was wondering who
is morrow.

Duh..and today morning, K-Lo was applying blue liner on her eye lines and i dumbly asked, you putting blue eye liner, wont it be blue?

Adui..campus affects my mental health..

Apa?

I'm having a horrible terrible awful nasty dreadful headache.

Gulped a cup of coffee in the lab which tasted awful as well, 3 in 1, what can u expect. Now i feel like vomitting..i have got tuna sandwiches with me and thinking abt it is making me want to puke coz it has gone slices of tomatos in it and i hate tomatoes..so soft, with jelly like seeds and a funny taste..yuck!

I want to go home...=(

MMU Day 4

Been walking around in campus looking like two lost juniors. Even J has been telling us, you both look like school kids. What not, with our jeans and big old T-shirts and backpack, we do look like some lost juniors, getting stares from juniors who don’t know us and curious looks from juniors who know us, indicating clearly, ‘what the hell are they still doing here, they grad ready right?’

Classes are getting hectic. It’s day 4 and I’m awfully tired of it. Was kind of wishing I didn’t resign my job when suddenly, I got a call from one of the trainee who was under my supervision in my company, complaining and complaining and complaining. I don’t want to elaborate. Now, I love the classes even more except when the trainer starts his age-old saying, ‘if you don’t work hard, you will fail. You have to study harder than you ever did, 10 times harder than how you studied for your degrees…bla bla bla..during these times, I try hard to become temporarily deaf. It just pulls my motivation down and instills too much of tension into my head when someone keeps telling me it’s hard to pass. After all, the risk I took was big, I dumped my life saving into this course, resigned my job and back to square one. If I fail, watch out for the news. Someone will be jumping from KLCC.

K has become the center of our entertainment, we in this case, S and me. In fact, K has become my masseuse for the month. Nice to get free massages after 8 hours of class.

Reloaded.

MMU Day 1

I'm back in MMU. First day of class.

Woke up at 7.30..Semangat...

Trainer spent his time scaring us about the certification exam. Hard seems to be in each and every of his sentence. Or it's this sentence altogether, 'Welcome to the one of the hardest exams in history'. I can already feel my stomach churning.

I feel like an old grandmother walking among the juniors. Proudly gonna act like a PHD student. =P (kononnya..)

Coming back to KL on the way, i could see the haze and how much it has spread all over the country.

Just hit my head on MMU pole while walking. Adui!

Wokey, back to class...

Muaks :-X

An 1 more before i kiss freedom..

Btw, a cloud of haze has surrounded the company. Masks are being distributed. Hmm...gloomy. I guess nature is sad i'm leaving this place...=P

Yay...hitting freedom with mixed feelings. Will update later..

2nd last day

Check out this article. I think it’s worth the read, only I haven’t got the patience to read it.

I’m darn bored over here. It’s 10.45am precisely and 5.30pm seems to be a zillion years away.

I have ran out of blogs to read, thanks to my friends who never update their blogs regularly (grrrr), I have cleaned my inbox, I have read the news, I checked my blog, read a few articles. Now, I have got nothing to do except to stare at the screen and believe me, it’s one of the hardest thing to do right now.

The birthday was a simple one. White chocolate cake (yum) and dinner outside. Took pictures. Gifts from my brothers and sister were cute. Parents gave me a pair of pretty gold earrings, which I couldn’t wear. I’m so used to wearing thin silver earrings, the earring hole has shrunk one size too small for gold ones. Besides nowadays they seem to make gold earrings with the ‘trunk’ fit for the earlobe hole of an elephant, it always bleeds when I try to wear it.

Last night I was lying in bed, thinking how birthdays seem to lose their magic, as you grow older. It was only then, when another part of my mind reminded me that I had my family to share the occasion and there are some people out there who don’t even have a cake for their birthdays. Funny how I seem to entirely forget what I have and focus on what I don’t have, and then be filled with a twinge of remorse when I am reminded once again to count my blessings. I’m a very blessed girl, with a good family, a good boyfriend and a good set of friends but I tend to forget that a tad bit too often.

The bf forgot my birthday. Called me only in the morning to wish me. One of my friends said,”Cheh, apa ni forgot birthday all, macam married couple only”. (Loosely translated:-Cheh, What is this..forgetting birthdays like married couple only?) But I like it when he forgets at times coz that’s when I get extra loving words for the day. =)

My grandpa who never forgot any of my birthdays for 22 years and never failed to visit me on each occasion, forgot the 23 and I had to call him at 11pm last night to get his wishes. Gonna visit him later after work. He’s getting sicker and sadder each day. I wish I know how to ease his pain. Growing old has been hard for him.

I parked at my usual plot today, and was looking into the car mirror,adjusting my hair when a Gen-2 entered the plot beside mine, music thundering, and with tinted windows. Ignoring it, I was back to my mirror and when I looked back, the driver window was rolled down and the guy was looking at me with a cheeky grin. It was the same guy who asked me why my car was ‘senget’ on the first day. When he saw me looking at him, he mimicked the action of putting lipstick and mouthed the words, “Tak pakai lipstick ka?”.

Tak guna..He’s cute =)

Ok, now back to my time watching job. The clock is ticking ever so slowly, tick…tick….tick…tick…tick……tick…..tic…..ti…..t….z……zzzzzzzzz…..

P/S: Thanks for all the smses, calls and greeting cards and also the blog comments on my birthday.

Massage tips

Haze fest

Errkkk..do I need to go to KL now?

Posture

To my working friends out there,

This may be a little useful for the health of your spine.

p/s: Works as a better reminder if you put it as your PC wallpaper.

Heaven...

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to meeeee, happy birthday to me! =D

Ah..another day to pretend to be busy.

I have improved my parking. No big deal, I know, except for the fact, like I said, the car park is just beside a pond, which means, when I park, the car is directly facing the pond, separated by the usual black and white barrier. If I accidentally accelerated on the oil, I would plunge into the pond,well well, coming to think of it, it isn’t exactly a pond, but a huge drain(as big as a pond) with green water, which I think is probably filled with all the company’s wastage. The first day I came here, I parked the car, half inside the lot, half jutting out and the guy who parked beside me gave me a peculiar once-over glance and then asked, ‘Kenapa park senget?”. Today he saw me again, my car precisely in it’s plot, smiled and wished me good morning. Hmm…car park in each plant seems to be blessing me with new acquaintances each time…

I’m just doing all I can to make sure one of my teammates’ modules is working. Why? Because he was kind enough to come and talk to me, to ask how I was doing, to ask if I know where the canteen is located in the new plant, kind enough to ask about my next course and kind enough to acknowledge my presence there. For the rest, they are just dumping the work on me; I’m not doing anything for them apart from acting busy. Haven’t touched a single thing on other modules. Screw me and I screw u back.

I'm human too, u know. There's no need to treat me like a criminal. I have every right to resign when i want to and there is no reason to bear grundge on me. If you are mad, show it at the management. I'm just one of the tiny people who had the guts to leave when i couldn't tolerate it anymore. And i'm not a coward. If i was, i would have resigned the day the boss sat with us and forced us not to go home until we finished the job, and we had to stay on until 12 midnight still unable to get it done. I am not afraid of the workload. Im leaving because of the silly management and the promise of a better future which this company will never be able to give me.

Oh yeah, did I tell you guys, there is this 5 minutes exercise session at the beginning of each day in this new office. Sharp 8.40am, a song you usually will hear in kindergarten will be played, I can’t catch hold of the lyrics, for it sounds as if the man is trying hard to speak in baby language, but I managed to get a few words, swing your arms, arms up, legs down, that’s right. 8 hours of stress, extra over time, and 5 minutes of arm swinging. Wow, I feel so healthy already.

I’m writing like a crackpot but I’m actually feeling very sad. It’s hard being here right now, amidst all these hostility. I wouldnt be suprised when i leave, no one comes and wishes me good luck. But i don't care. I'm mentally prepared for that too. Makes me even more glad that im leaving this hell.

And it’s my birthday somemore..

Remorse pulak...

Ok..one of them came and spoke to me and told me his/their problem. Pity them but he was not mad at my resignation. He said it was all part of the game and it was a good thing not to let the chance slip away. Now I don’t feel like screwing anything anymore. But stupid users..they are such losers…

Leper?

Im sitting in a corner, all by myself, no one else is talking to me, including my team members and any correspondence is done thru mail even though it's just walking distance between us. they didnt even bother asking how was my convo. It's as if im a leper of some kind. How childish could they be?

I dont understand something though. What i did was not wrong. I worked my ass off for this company, sacrificing my sleep, my weekends and also after work hours during weekdays without getting any appreciation and finally when i start thinking about my own life and my own future, i'm suddenly the bad employee.

Such a stupid company. I am just wondering how i actually managed to work here for 8 months. So tempted to screw something before i leave.

So cheap are human relationships until they dont mind spiting each other just for one man who owns the company, who doesnt even acknowledge their presence there.

I'm just writing stuff and emails to pass my time and trying to act busy. Not doing the work they gave to me. To hell with it. I have had enough. If you can't be nice to me, don't even dream i will be nice enough to complete my work before i leave.

I was feeling a little guilty for causing havoc by resigning suddenly but now, i dun even have a twinge of remorse. I keep wishing i had screwed it up even more.

Yawn..it's so hard falling asleep with my eyes wide open..2 and a half days more...

Consider these...

My resignation letter

August 2, 2005

Ms ====
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Dear Ms ===

Resignation Notification

I am writing to you today to officially tender my resignation from ==== effective today.

I never thought I would leave a good company like =====, but when the opportunity arose to do a course, which has always been a career dream for me, I simply had to take advantage of it.

Working in ===== has been a good opportunity for me to get a glimpse of the working world. It has been a great pleasure working with you as well as the rest of the === system team members and also the systems department staff members themselves.

It’s my hope that we will stay in touch as I begin this new chapter in my life.

Thanks again for everything. I wish only the best for you -- and for the company.

Sincerely,

======
Works No: ======
====== Systems Department.

Convo 2005

I'm back again at the factory without much enthusiasm. Or perhaps with the enthusiasm of a cat who got a carrot as a christmas gift. Doesnt make sense but at least you got the point.

I had a great week, totally forgot everything at work except for when i had to repeat every torture i had endured at work to my interested friends. The whole superb 6 days was only marred when i received a sms from the boss on Monday night asking me to come over to the other plant straight in the morning. That was the only time i was reminded that i still had one week of work to do. Sigh.

Ignoring the message, i went straight to my old plant to get some things first and to my great horror, my pc was missing from it's place. Apparently it was moved to the other plant, so i grabbed my stuff and drove off to the other plant, faced some difficulty in parking, as the car park was just beside an old pond and i was terrified of driving straight into it and finally arrived at my new workplace. I don't want to elaborate on this place, but sufficient to say, it's one office shared by accounts, shipping and sales department and currently with additional members of the system's department, so guess what it's like. Currently crammed into a small section, no cubicles, a small chair and a short desk, staring at the screen with a blank mind and aching shoulders. Ah, 4 more days, just 4 more days.

Most of my work had been done. Good. Looks like they can survive without me after all which is a good thing as I wont feel so bad when leaving. I can sense subtle hostility from them, no one is talking properly to me but it doesn’t bother me so much. I’m going to be gone soon and leave this creepy image behind me.

The convo trip was great. Meet every single person I wanted to meet. Had loads of fun. Hotel breakfast. Lunch. Dinner. Gossip. Lepaking. The highlight was the gathering, the receiving of the scroll from Dr Siti Hasmah was over in less than a minute. My dad hugged and kissed me on the cheek as soon as I got out of the hall, much to my younger sister’s amusement but it felt good, it really did. At the end of the ceremony, when the MMU song was played and a short video clip was shown on MMU, I felt a twinge of pain in my heart. It was as if it was an official marking of the end of one chapter in my life, a chapter which no matter how hard I try, will not open back the same way I want it to be…I almost wanted to cry when Prem said something funny and I totally forgot about crying..=)

One of the funny moments was when I was at the photo studio with my parents right before the convo and was taking 3 different poses and as my parents had no idea bouquets are given to graduates, I had to ‘borrow’ satyah’s for one shot, much to my mum’s embarrassment. They bought one for me though, later on, for 70 bucks.

It was also the first time my parents officially met my boyfriend. The initial plan,which I had criminally worked out, was to get out of the hall as soon as the convo was over, meet my boyfriend, take photos and run off to my parents like nothing happened. But somehow, it turned the other way round, he came with his brother and gave my flowers while the bro gave me a teddy bear in front of my parents, and I introduced them to each other. Glad it went well. They even followed my family for dinner and took family photos together. Wow.

The gathering was usual, some were late, some were early, some had hard time deciding where to eat and some had hard time following the decision. Nerves were stepped on, short tempers but in the end, it all worked out well and fine.

I only started back home from Melaka at around 9 pm and reached home at 4 am the next day, and didn’t sleep immediately. Had to iron my mum’s and dad’s uniform. Dad had to go to work while mum had a test. Slept at 6.

On the way back, I just couldn’t wipe off the silly smile plastered across my face. I just couldn’t stop. Never felt happier. Everything just worked out the way I wanted it to be. All the faces of my friends appeared in my mind as I closed my eyes and thought about each and every one of them, their characters, their pros and cons, how much we gossiped each other, how much we stepped on each other’s nerve, how much we disagreed with each other and yet, come together as a family ready to defend and protect each other when the need arises. Come together in one roof, as people with different background but with one similar past entangled together. A past that connects no matter what happens.

To all MMU’ans’ , Convo 2005 was the best. ALL THE BEST AND GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE.

Toyota Latest Model - Extremely fuel saving

Next Chapter

Finally....

After so long, im back again, walking on the grounds of MMU. But this did not happen without going thru shit as work as usual.

Well, for one, before i came in, i tendered in my 13 days notice period resignation letter. And right at 4.45pm, my convo leave was rejected apparently for one stupid reason i don't even have the mood to write about. So i applied again at 5 pm and fled home at 8.30 pm without bothering to see if it was approved or not,but who gives a damn? I'm not going to sacrifice my convo memory for crap like that.

The worst was my boss knew i was on holiday the next day, and asked me if i could come to work a few hours before i board the bus..that really ticked me off like hell, for my bus was at 10am, and it takes me 2 hrs, to and fro my company and the bus station, so what u want me to do, wake up at 5 am and go to work first? on my annual leave day?

Some companys perhaps never read the labour law. Probably before i get to my next job, i would have to read through the labour law and fight back everytime something goes out of the written rules, but that would make me the first to go in case there were any downsizing..but who cares...

Well, just in case anyone is wondering, as written in the previous post, well i resigned to do a 1 month course in back in MMU which starts on Aug 15 and ends on Sept 19, from 8 am to 5 pm so i probably wont be able to blog that very often. Initially i applied for unpaid leave/study leave which was rejected on the grounds that the course is irrelevant to my company. Any course would be irrelevant to my company unless the software to be used is supposed to be free, like how they are currently changing from COBOL to JAVA as java is free.

The managers were not happy and i had a tough time trying to make them let me take the study leave but it didnt work so i just told them i'm leaving, by hook or by crook.

I knew they were not happy, and i am going to be screwed big time from aug 9 until aug 13. I feel bad though, for leaving them in such a state but i only got to know i was accepted for the course at the last minute so i could not give a 1 month notice. The system would be screwed for a while for my abrupt leave, as no one else was handling my part, the flow, the functions, no doucumentations but i am left with no choice. I have had enough of that job. I don't see a future in it. User is always right, like they are the kings and we are the beggars. They taught us Software Development Life Cycle at University, but i beleive it's the managers who really truly need to go for this courses first. And they also need to understand that the lower level people, ie the programmers are humans, not robots who can work 24 hours a day. Software management is out, people management is out, i am actually wondering how i managed to withstand this crap for such a long time.

As for my resignation letter, just in case u guys were wondering how to write one, hey, there's help from the net. I just copied from a website, and modified it. apparently the person who wrote the letter wanted to open his own vineyard(how i wish i could do that), so i just deleted the vineyard and inserted my own reason, he he!

Have been rounding around in Alamanda yesterday, met Vicky, Pragash, Kashie so far. Pragash picked me up from pudu and meeting him just started with a fight and ended with a fight, but that is usual. we never have nice things to say to each other, he he.Notice how friendships which is 'kutuking' based tends to last longer? The world's a funny place.

Currently with Kameeni the great in the lab, he he =) Also finally managed to see my boyfriend. =)Would be meeting Nava later and the whole 22 member gang tomorrow. Can't wait, can't wait.

Had breakfast in FCM cafe, courtesy of Ms Kameeni. Ah, the thick yummy mamak coffee and the roti canai and the usual cold, dunno-when-it-was-made curry. My stomach feels funny now, but this is the start for the 1 month campus food stint, ha ha..memories memories..

I'm actually grinning at the screen while writing this.

But i'm missing my family suddenly, especially my youngest brother. But 1 month would end soon, i'm sure it would. and i do hope i would pass the exam.

So friends, wish me luck as i embark on this new chapter in my life, which i hope would be for the better. I have had enough shit all these while, at my work place. Final screwing session would be from aug 9 to aug 13. then i would be a free bird, jobless...

Now let me bask in the luxury of thinking how wonderful it would be to be jobless for one month, ahhh....ahhhh...ahhh....(sara aka Kamal Hassan style)

=)

AH.....

Was in the midst of biting the head of the next caller who called me at work, when my hp started ringing n i heard the melodious name of the person whom i was expecting a call from.

No no, not a lover, not anyone close. Well, the person just delivered the best piece of news today. For now, let's just say i simply hit jackpot. will keep you guys posted later.

My wish came true..ah...

Wohoo..dancing like Joey in F.R.I.E.N.D.S.