A letter to myself

Girl,

You were put here to live on your own. Forget about other existence. Think about yourself. Sometimes it is better to live alone rather than to live with a bunch of people, talking about senseless things for the sake of fun.

Forget about the illusions that this world presents to you. Turn inside and keep yourself company. Live in complete solidity, as it provides peace that nothing else can offer you.

Stop living for other people. When the time comes, they will move on with their lives. That’s when you will start sinking and no one will bother to pull you out of the waves of turmoil. Whatever you do, you are the one only who will bear the consequences later. No one else will shoulder it for you.

Whatever decisions you make in your life, put yourself, your family and your loved ones first. Nothing else comes in between. Don’t let unnecessary ideas from outside affect your decision. An outsider will always be an outsider, given a right chance, everything will be ruined for you.

Emotions are the key to your bliss. Don’t let anyone touch that part of you. Once ripples of sadness affect you, you know very well how much it disturbs your peace of mind. Remember, once you almost became a lunatic, with shame, guilt, anger, sadness and betrayal all mixed into one. Do you want to go through it again?

If a problem protrudes in your life, don’t let it rule you. Solve it and let it be gone. Don’t expect others to solve it for you and don’t sit around, contemplating about it, wishing and wishing that it never happened in the first place. Whatever disappointments come your way, just face it and throw it aside. You can’t change the past but the future is there for you to design and reshape.

Remember, you maybe passionate about something but others might not be. They will pretend in front of you and one day, when a better offer comes, they will say goodbye. Not everyone is sincere, so when you trust someone, make sure that person is worth it. Even if in the end, you realize that the person is not worth your trust, don’t despair. Take it as a lesson and move on. Do not expect everyone to appreciate you and your feelings no matter how true it is. Be prepared for anything for you cannot predict what has already been in store for you.

Stop planning your life based on others. Stop spending your time thinking about others, their misdeed and clutter your mind with confusion. I don’t see any reason to torture yourself like how you are doing now for the mistakes of others. Stop blaming yourself for the blunder of others. Stop pretending like everything is fine. Where is the logic? Explain it to me.

Why must you keep thinking of people who hurt and cheat you so badly? Why must you let them into your life and bully you again? Can’t you see the truth all laid out perfectly right in front of you? Are you blind? What’s life for you is just a game for others.

Most important of all, don’t do to others what others have done to you and don’t plan on revenge no matter how good it makes you feel. Remember the pain and anguish that you went through. Do you really want to bestow such a torturous gift upon others? If that’s what you want, then there is no difference between you and those who hurt you. You were born sincere, better to die sincere.

This life is both heaven and hell for you. It’s how you look at it that decides which one is right for you. Just don’t let mere mortals invade your mind and soul. They are just worthless creatures, lingering around, like demons who take your off your track and push you into the ravine of agony whenever you are not careful. You don’t want to be associated with devils, do you?

I know your life for the past few months had been an emotional roller coaster ride but let’s look at it from a brighter side. (Hey, that even rhymes!) It taught you a very good lesson. All this while, you were cooped up in your cocoon. Now you know how outside life is.

I want you to know that I’m proud of you. Proud that even when you had fallen and hurt yourself badly in this mad race, you managed to get up with dignity. You managed to control your emotions to a certain extent. I’m really proud of you. You didn’t bother others with your problems even when you were on the verge of giving up on everything. You kept it well hidden and you managed to get over it gradually. Girl, you are truly growing up.

I understand for a fact that working life is new to you and I also know that you are sick of it but you can’t escape it for now. Not yet. So it’s about time you take the right step to change this wretchedness to joy. Take your work as a challenge, a mountain that you wish to concur. No matter how hard it gets, you have to climb on to reach the peak. Every achievement, no matter how small, is a sweet victory. Enjoy it but don’t expect others to appreciate it. Expecting admiration from others is the first thing that destroys your victorious feat.

Count your blessings. This life is a gift from God. Appreciate it. Be thankful for the family, friends and a special soul mate that God had given you. Those are the most important people in your life. Don’t let them wallow in sorrow with your confusion.

Whatever it is, whatever that comes your way, whatever that disturbs your journey, just be your true self, ..just be your true self..

“The ability to think is god’s gift to you. What you think is your gift to yourself”