dejavu

last weekend was a pretty hectic weekend. rushed to KL to take back my things from cyberjaya.

the moment i saw my campus, my heart was filled with some kind of painful sadness. the fact that the four years of my university life will not repeat again just hit me hard that time. memories after memories started haunting my mind. i really cant put it in words, the way i felt it. university life.. the best moment of my life. MMU, the place that shaped me into the person i am today. im so grateful for the four years..my heart is filled with undefinable gratitute.

i am outspoken now,more confident and no matter how hard and how deep i fall, i still beleive i can get up and get going. on friday, i attended my second toastmaster's meeting and they asked if i wanted to talk and i dont know where i got the courage but i just went and talked. i know if i had never gone to MMU, i wouldnt have done that.

so far i have attended two interviews and i am amazed with myself. i can really talk and answer each and every question properly. i owe it all to MMU, the place that taught me to be a person.

i am also suprised at the way i managed to control my emotions at work and in my personal life. i dont really care about what people think about me anymore. as long as i know i am right and as long as i dont hurt anyone in the process...i just continue with my plans and with my life. i used to be so worried about people's impression about me but now i realise no matter what i do...i cannot satisfy each and every person in this word. MMU taught me this..it really did,no kidding..

even now, while writing this, i feel the sharp pain again. i really really am going to miss it. not to say working life is miserable. i enjoy working but i hate the mentality of the people here. there is no sincerity. they just dont care about anyone.

such wonderful memories..MMU..thanks for making me woman.