..curse me..

i met theven after work on friday. we had a very long talk. i felt better after talking to him. i realised i have been very bad to him but still he accepts me as who i am and still tries to work things out although he knows everything that had happened for the past one month. i have never seen any man like him. he may be hot tempered but he has the heart of a child. he respects a girl and never thinks badly about anyone. he has never manipulated a girl or any other person and although all this while i thought he was controlling me..only now i realised it was for my own good.

he enlightens me about this world and men around me. if not for his advice, i would have fallen in this life and hurt myself badly.

i have been very very stupid. i never appreciated what i have and i have never appreciated him until now. any other girl would have been blessed to have him.

still..im in a very confused state.i couldnt make any decisions right now.Sigh! why am i being so stupid? the truth is just right in front of me and i cant see it and i am looking for it somewhere else..damn u girl!