dirty dirt..

i was feeling very upset today. i have no idea why. dunno why i feel so much..dont know why i must feel so sad..

my tears were flowing in the canteen, in the office..i just couldnt stop it. i was okay till lunch time..then the shart tug in my heart started..i got so upset..my whole face turned red and i excused myself and ran to the toilet.

i just dont understand myself. if u fall into dirt,just wash it and walk off.it's not like i am dirty..then why the heck cant i forget it and get on with my life?

i will get on with my life..it just takes time..thanks to shanta akka and my chitti and soon my dad...i will be okay..i will throw everything behind me..you can go to hell..dammit!

there is so much of anger and frustration in me but i will not let that ruin me or rule me. i am a good person, good things come to good person and remember..what goes around comes around..u will feel this pain too one day..then u will know how i feel like right now..

i dont understand something..i have always been honest and truthful..it just sucks that people can still play with that until now..nvm..things will get back to you one day..i am trying so hard not to ill wish anyone..so let god decide what he wants to do next..i will not wish for anything..let my dearest god decide what is the best for you..

soon,i will find the key to the place in my heart where darkness cant find me..i will be happy and from there,i will look at you and be thankful that god has spared me..

p/s: sa darling..im sure what i am going to type next will make u turn green with envy..well i came home with my boss today and played with her 4 year old kid.he likes me soo much..score point two!:) prem..sorry for calling ur SA as my darling..btw..does anyone know how to add HIT COUNTER in blog spot? i have received a lot of messages in my friendster abt my blog..just hope i could add the counter..comments doesnt seem to work..thanks..ciaoz!