Emotions

i dont understand something abt this world. why is it that people judge your feelings based on the emotions that you show externally? if a person is crying over something and another people is just keeping quiet,does that mean the crying person is more affected than the second person? does anyone stop and wonder how much turmoil is going on in the heart of the second person?

just because i am calm and composed,that doesnt mean that i am not affected by whatever that is going on around me. i just hate it when people judge me based on my outer potrayal. i am a person who keeps her thoughts and her feelings to herself.sometimes i might be so terribly sad but i dont show it. i just dont like to show it. but dont judge me based on that. dont say i am not affected by something and dont say i dont care that much,thats why i am calm.

god knows how i feel inside my heart. sometimes i feel i have come to a stage where i hate everything that is around me. i sometimes dont want to give a damn about anyone or anything. people come to me asking me to consider certain things before making a decision but have they ever considered my thoughts and feelings? how can people expect me to just forget a certain thing and be normal? why must i consider the feelings of people who are not directly involved and forget abt my own sadness and dissapointments? i dont want to hurt anyone but why do people take advantage on that and make me do things that i dont want to do in the first place?

how a certain matter is affecting a certain person depends on the individual.no one else should judge if it is a small matter or big matter. let the person decide..dont judge her and dont decide for her.she knows what she wants in her life.dont confuse her for your own needs.dont be so selfish. she is a person too and she also has feelings on her own and right now she is so sad and despressed that she cant even think of anything..but she doesnt show it. she keeps it in her heart..but please dont judge her and she is not a bad person..