Whisper of the heart

Without yourself, you are alone...

Saturday, May 15, 2004

A Messenger of God

it's funny how God somehow finds a way to send his messages to you..

i was sitting on the floor of my house porch,helping my brother with his woodwork for Kemahiran Hidup. as i was helping,my thoughts wandered. i was thinking about my life right now and was pondering about the future,half scared wondering what it has to offer me and speculating if i would be able to handle problems in life all by myself or just give up.

that was when,my bro and i spotted this indian lady about 40 years old,walking very fast with a towel on her head under the hot afternoon sun,heading towards my house porch. she looked abit scary,the way she was walking, and was wearing clothes which looked like they have never been washed for years and my little bro exclaimed,"who the hell is that".

she reached my house porch,made some sound trying to get our attention to look at her and then gave us some signals which we really couldnt understand. i told my brother to call my father and when he came,again she gave the same signal;flapping her arms widely like a chicken and pointing to her forehead. my dad somehow understood that she was asking for my mother. mum said the lady is mute and poor and she asked me to give the lady a big bundle of clothes which my mum had been saving and dad gave her some money. then she left.

the whole incident was funny but somehow it got me thinking.i felt as if god was telling me,"look..there are people far worse than you,still they never gave up,they are still fighting.that lady could have ended her life to ease her suffering,but she didnt.her life goes on and that's how you should be too.life might hold a lot of dissapointments and hardship for you but in the end,fighting it and still be alive makes you a complete human".

this is not the first time i have gotten this kind of indirect message.i still remember travelling back with nalin when the last semester was over and she was complaining that now she has to find work and she was sort of worrying about it. it made me feel a bit alarmed too. that was when,while waiting for the bus at the platform in pudu,a small boy,about 8 years old approached us and asked us to buy key chains from him. he was asking so many times and finally i felt so pitiful and bought one. nalin straight away said " i think that was God telling me dont complain so much,there are even people younger than you,much much younger,who have to earn for their living."

next time you feel like God has abandoned you,next time you feel alone and frustrated,look around..god has his own special way to communicate with you.it all depends on how you perceive it. life is worth living for all that it has to offer and god is worth beleiving for he is always there for you...

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