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It's almost the end of week 3. There's another 2 more weeks to go before the 5 weeks course ends. The course is getting boring and harder. I mean really hard and confusing. At certain times, it just doesnt make sense.

I force myself to study everyday and everytime i get freaked out, wondering if i would pass the exam. There was a moment yesterday when i was alone in the tutorial room, when i started thinking about the course real deep and started to feel the extreme pressure. It sometimes makes me so tensed up that i couldnt concentrate in what im reading. Not to mention the darned guard who keep chasing me in and out of the tutorial room much to my dismay and it wasn't even anywhere near 12 midnight.

Sometimes i dont understand MMU's policy. You cant study in the tutorial room unless u book it first, no using the facilities after midnight, no studying near the pantry in 3rd and 2nd floor near the lecturer's room. Library is always ever so noisy, people walking up and down, the scan door opening time and again. Where else can i sttudy? Inside the rubbish bin?

Yesterday the guards asked me to leave the place near the lecturers' room. Why? Staff only policy. Dumb. I was just alone, studying and not disturbing anyone. All these adds to my pressure coz i feel these idiots are contributing for my failure.

I have never been this stressed in my entire life.

I wanna go home...