Sum it up

The week had been hell. I know, i had been complaining all these while but these is the worst i have felt so far.

I am getting extremely stressed up. Work was and still is like being grilled in a pit fire. Sometimes sitting in my cubicle, i get instant fever or tears starts welling up in my eyes. It's sheer frustration and it's killing me each day. I dread waking up in the morning. Sometimes i just feel,it doesn't make any difference if one day,i just never wake up at all. It just feels as if there is just a thin line or perhaps a nonexistant line between life and death after all. And to top it all up, things at home were no good too.

There were times when i cried in the car while driving to work. And end up looking like a zombie at work until the department manager came and asked, if i was alright. There were also moments when i felt like dashing into the opposite lane and ram into an oncoming truck and end all my stress there and then.

But somehow or rather,i managed to pick myself up, and im fine now. i still dread certain things but like they say, that, that doesnt kill you, only makes you stronger.

I know, perhaps you might ask, what happened to you master. well, he is still there, with me, or else, i wouldnt have been able to pick myself up again, would i? He's there as a guide. The war is still mine to face.

I'm also begining to lose interest in blogging hence there lag in between posts.