My master.

Somehow someway i have managed to forgive everyone who had hurt my feelings.
It was because of that song that i listened. It made me feel there is no use going on,getting hurt with what people do to me, getting hurt when my expectations are not fulfilled, getting hurt when i'm ignored, getting hurt when the whole world seems to turn it's back on me,getting hurt when people i love too much don't seem to care so much like before. There is no use going on, getting hurt and hurting others in the process for as long as i live, i don't wish to hurt a single soul. There are times when i forget who i really am and yearn too much for affection from my loved ones and get hurt when i don't get enough. There are times when I wished I was dead for others to start missing me…

How foolish it is to base this life on others. How foolish it is to live in utter ignorance. My mind can be my greatest weapon or it could be my ultimate doom. I don’t want to sit and cry upon what others did to me. I was not born to cry. Self-pity would just be my deepest enemy.

Someone who had never let me down all these while..my master, reminded me who I truly am. His songs are making me cry, but not in sorrow, but in complete thirst, to forget about everything else. To be happy again, with a most simplistic happiness of a child.

Never felt this calm before. I surrender. I would love those around me without even expecting a drop of love back because I have the ultimate love from my master who had never let me down all these while…

Why was I so foolish, not to realize this before? God created sorrow coz that’s the only time we would remember him. I tried looking for it outside only to realize when my search futile, that it was with me all the while.

These are not words from a depressed woman. I have never been so clear before..in my entire life..

I no longer hate the world coz I no longer expect anything from it. I have all I want inside of me…I have only my love to offer to everyone else..

As for my loved ones, my love for you will always grow deeper no matter what happens..And I have no expectations anymore..I shall accept everything that comes my way with open arms and a smiling heart.

p/s: This posting was not done with the intention of hurting anyone or to ask for pity..This is true my inner feelings..